Before I was mom

May 11, 2008 Filed Under: family, life, love, motherhood, thoughts 298 words

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn’t worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn’t want to put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom - I didn’t know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn’t know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom - I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn’t know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Jessica
Nadine

Comment by Jessica on May 12th, 2008 @ 9:51 pm

OMG, this totally is true! Thanks for putting this up! I loved reading it! I was sitting here as I was reading it just nodding the whole time!! I love your blog Gayle!

Jessica @ Graphix Twist!

Comment by Nadine on May 13th, 2008 @ 4:33 am

that’s a really sweet poem. and
it’s always amazing at the work
and worry mothers go through.

Comment by Vina on May 13th, 2008 @ 7:37 am

This is so touching… it’s a very nice work from you Ate Gayle. ^ ^

Comment by Amber on May 13th, 2008 @ 7:23 pm

That’s so sweet and touching
Thanks for making me smile (:

Comment by kimba on May 14th, 2008 @ 7:29 pm

that is so sweet, you are talented.

Comment by Rachel on May 15th, 2008 @ 1:51 am

wow ang nice ng poem so true yan galing noh

Comment by Tyler on May 15th, 2008 @ 2:55 am

That’s a really nice poem. I like it.

Comment by Matt on May 16th, 2008 @ 5:09 pm

I don’t think it’d take fatherhood for me to worry about whether or not I had poisonous plants in my house… … very interesting read.

I’ve watched the same transformation in my older sister, but it’s not always the same for everyone - I’ve seen women who have become mothers not change in any real fundamental way. Sometimes motherhood is just another thing, which is kind of sad.

I’m not usually one for sentimental oohing and aahing over babies and motherhood, but deep down inside, I really like do like to see that it does change some people on an emotional level in such a way that is positive, that is life-changing, that is monumental.